Life Up North

One of my favorite memories of growing up in Wisconsin was traveling up north to Chetek and my great-grandma's lake home. I was pretty young, so some of my memories may be jumbled, but these are events that stick out the most and I think they all include my cousin, Nicole:

• going to the Miss Chetek pageant at the local high school
• going to Ben Franklin with my aunt and cousin to purchase fake flowers and everything needed to have our own beauty pageant 
• taking the canoe out and "accidentally" flipping it over in the middle of the lake (family was not happy)
• calling my cousin porcupine legs because she shaved her legs (obviously not that well) and we had to sleep together and her legs rubbed up on mine
• going to the street dance and digging for money in a pile of sawdust
• watching the church lady on Saturday Night Live
• watching the men butcher the fish they caught that would later be our dinner
• betting that our family couldn't tell the difference between Nicole and I's handwriting...they told us to spell "guess" and I spelled "geuss". Fail. 
• picking green beans at the neighbor lady's house
• visiting the cemetery with my grandma and placing flowers on deserted graves

Ahh, good times. I reminisce because we will be there on Saturday. Not the same house but the same small town. I think back now about how much you take for granted when you are a child. What we would give to still have that property in our family, right on the lake! We'll be in a newer cabin and will still get to do all of the fun lake stuff. I wonder if I'll remember any landmarks there and how much it has changed. Now we can go out with the adults and experience what they did when we were wee ones :) I'll update with fun pictures on my photo blog http://picturexthis.wordpress.com (hopefully if the technology is available!). Most of all I'm excited to cool off! Have you walked outside today? Ick! It's 101 degrees, humid, and not even 11:00 a.m. 

I must clean the house for our house/dog sitter. Enjoy your day!

Fur Mommy and Daddy

On Sunday I went to an orientation for the Arizona Humane Society. Since the AHS and I are Facebook friends (haha) I knew that they were in desperate need for foster homes for their kiddos. I thought I would go see how we could help. Since we can't really get any more pets until we have a giant house with oodles of land, we could at least help out with some animals that needed it. The duration will be from a few days to a few weeks. If we happen to get an animal of a deployed service person, it could be far longer than that.  We signed up for kittens/cats and puppies/dogs (no ferrets or mice allowed!). They may be injured, too young, under-socialized, or may need to gain some weight (not hard to do in this house!). Once we get back from vacation, we are ready and open for foster parenting!

I'm a huge lover of the Humane Society and an advocate of adopting your animals from there. Considering we got both of our babies from the AHS, I know there are cute, lovable, forever pets there! Do not support those mall pet stores and even breeders! And get your pets spayed and neutered!

That is all. 

Anyways, today I sure wish I was at Warped Tour! Well sort of. There's really one band I want to see badly enough to endure the god awful heat for and I don't really have anyone to go with (people work, ya know?). Hopefully they are touring this fall!!

I'm getting excited for our vacation to Wisconsin on Friday. Ready for water, boats, thunderstorms, cool weather, etc. And of course to see family :) You know what else I'm excited about...babies and weddings! All over the place! 

Forgive me, I've had Starbucks today. First time in a while. 

When I Grow Up

I don't normally have this much time on my hands.

In the past, even when I was teaching, my summers were busy with classes, summer school, and second jobs. Since I decided to return to school, and since decided it's not exactly feasible at this point to be unemployed for two years, I've had a hard time playing that role. Okay, I have a job, but I'm not working full time and definitely not making the same amount of money. And I like to say my IQ drops 50 points when I walk in the door.

Anyway, when I learned that the nursing program I've been stoked about since January 09 was over (at the exact moment I was applying), I felt sort of bummed, sort of relieved. Bummed that I wouldn't be able to finish something I was really excited about but relieved that I could put my Masters Degree to good use and start contributing to this family! I'm very lucky I scored the job I wanted, especially due to all of the terrible education cuts and the state of Arizona right now.

I secretly like to be busy and work a lot, although it has been pretty easy to not have a 5 day work week and be able to sleep in. But I'm ready! I'm ready to wake up at 5 a.m.! I'm ready to pay off my credit cards! I'm ready to pay for dinner when we go out! I'm ready to go on vacation!

Technically I still have a few weeks left of this life before being a grown up starts again. I'm going to enjoy it and not feel guilty, because after all, I have a good 30 plus years of work left in me :)

Back in the Game

Hey. Remember me? I know, I know, I can't make up my mind. Do I want to write? Take pictures of my food? Take pictures of my day? Blog about my wedding? Well I've decided, yes, I want to take pictures of my day and yes, I want to write. I've always been a writer and it's hard to just take a picture and not explain it with a long, drawn out caption. And of course, who really cares about my life that much? I of course want people to enjoy my writings and pictures but it's so fun to go back and read these. They put me exactly in that moment.

The truth is, I can't sleep. I have so much on my mind. I'd rather sit in the dark and strain my eyes than attempt to fall asleep after an hour of tossing and turning.

After reading my last post, it's funny (?) I wrote about Jessie. It's the last time I saw her and a large part of my off and on sleeping problems. Jessie's been gone for nearly three months now and there isn't a day that hasn't gone by where I haven't thought of her. Those thoughts are usually accompanied by tears. I still cannot believe what happened and why. I don't think I or anyone else will and I'm having a hard time with that. I have no regrets about the last time I saw her; we hugged goodbye and said we loved each other. But of course all I think about is the last time I was in Flagstaff before she died, exactly a month before. I didn't see her. We stopped by her office and touched her name on the door. I texted her to come out. Why didn't I call her? Why didn't I let her know how much I really wanted to see her? Why didn't I ask her why we never received any RSVP for any of our wedding stuff? Why couldn't I have one last memory of her? I know I can't kick myself for the rest of my life about this. I know that I have to be at peace with what has happened and know that there is a reason. I just wonder how long that takes? And will I start to feel guilty when I start to feel at peace? And why do I feel so consumed with how I feel and not about her children and her family?

I'm sorry to be so depressing. A lot of that needed to come out somehow and it just happened to be through the keyboard. But that's what this is for, right? :)

I'll be back soon with happy thoughts, rainbows, and unicorns. Until then, see what I did today at http://picturexthis.wordpress.com .

Hitting for the Cycle

Well, hello!

So today was one of those days that justified for me what I'm doing. Some days I think if this was the best idea. I mean, I know it was, it just gets difficult sometimes when you're not making a regular income and have to depend on your other half. I guess it happens all of the time, it's just weird when you've never really lived that way? I don't know. Well that's not the only reason. This summer was hard on me with classes because they were so jam packed. That also made me question if I had any idea what I was doing. Someone who has struggled with science her whole life and now I have to learn all this so quickly?!? Ahhh! Anyways, what I'm saying is I did really well on my micro test, like above 100 percent, and very well on my bio 202 test. It gave me a boost of confidence. Sometimes I expect that I'm going to have no idea what the question is asking me and this time I'm like, "I 100 percent know that answer!" Feels really good!

Just finished a deep vacuum of the furniture. Oh, dogs. There was about 500 pounds of hair in the shop vac. Lovely. Well it's all worth it for those doggies:)

Since we last spoke, I went to Flagstaff to try to convince my brother to go there so we can stay with him when we visit. I think he secretly liked it. I got to hang out with Jessie on Friday night and that was fun. She was having a rough day. It was the anniversary of her husband's death so I was glad that she chose to spend it with me.

This week is flying by! I have to go try on my altered dress on Friday and get my shoes dyed. We also have Brad and Katy's shower on Saturday and I'm bartending on Sunday. I like it so much better than serving but serving isn't too bad. It's just the money!

Anyways, I'm going to finish my lab report, listen to the DBacks (no TV today!), and then we are making pizza and watching Earth. I've been wanting to see that movie forever!

Tood-a-loo,

E.

Let's spend it up

Oh man, are my lymph nodes swollen! I'm still in my pj's...yes, it's 2pm. Hey, it's my day off!

Today I did the Wii fit because I was trying to unlock more yoga but after 30 minutes I only unlocked balance games (which I'm terrible at) and strength training (which I did a few of). I felt so great doing my hula hoop and weird exercises and then when I was done felt yucky again!

I suppose I should be doing something a little more useful today...however, sometimes I just need to be okay with lounging! It's so weird how much pressure we put on ourselves to always be busy and always be accomplishing something. I have to tell myself, "Hey, it's okay if all you've accomplished today is taking the dogs to the Starbucks drive-thru.

I am hoping that True Food Kitchen has some drinks on their menu that will "cure" me tonight. I'm dying for a caramelized onion and fig tart and kale salad!

I guess I'll take a shower so when J gets home I'm not in the same clothes:)

I won't just buy you a rose.

Hello. Not a happy camper today. Well, I'm not mad or sad, just feel a cold coming on since yesterday and I've tried everything to make it go away and it's lingering! I rarely, rarely get sick so I tend to freak out when I do. Okay, a cold isn't necessarily "sick" but ya know. This morning I did some yoga and couldn't find my mat (okay, I didn't exactly look for it) so I did it on the carpet of the living room and I had a big dog hair body sweater when I was done.

The last two times I've tried to donate blood I've felt like a cold was coming on. Yesterday, my blood squirted all over the place. It was quite watery. Again, my iron was too low. She told me to have some chocolate covered raisins and spinach to up my iron so of course I obliged on the raisins:)

School is going well. I'm actually enjoying it and not feeling any bit of stress (yet) since it's going so slow! Love it! I'm really enjoying microbiology and am terrified of touching anything when I leave that class.

Have you ever wanted to just move somewhere? Now? Today I have this urge to move to Florida. I think I am just really wanting to visit my aunt and uncle's house there. It's so beautiful and I'm so upset we didn't take more pictures and sit in the backyard more. Hello, the ocean is right there?! Really, realllllly want to go. Then maybe I won't have such an itch to move there. We also may be going to Puerto Vallarta in March with some friends. By then I should have (hopefully) a job that makes more money, as well as more time during the day to work!

Not much upon the horizon. I think this weekend we will be having True Food for dinner, go special shopping, hang with Silvio and Jess and who knows what else. Oh, I have to work Sunday. Might be going to Flagstaff if I don't have to work next Friday. My brother is touring the campus (of course he thinks I can only show him the bars)! Yep, yep.

Alright, fighting with my cold for a few minutes, then off to work!

Can I get a...,

E.